Hello Dreams

Going into 2018, I told myself that there would be some old things that would be left behind.

This year I’ve felt God place on my heart to not be afraid to dream, and to dream big. Dream without fear of failure.

Over this past year, I’ve heard myself think and say stuff like “Oh, I would love to do X one day, but I’m really just not good enough” or “I could never do that, I wouldn’t be as good as (fill in the blank).” Thoughts of “not good enough” would make my dreams wither as I would box them up and put them away. Because dreaming like that just wasn’t realistic, and I shouldn’t get my hopes up.

This year, I’m getting rid of “good enough.”

There’s a place of perfection that can never be reached, and just because you aren’t “good enough” (I really dislike those words if you can’t tell) doesn’t mean that you shouldn’t dream or walk in those dreams. I realized that if I was always waiting for when I would be good enough, I’d never even try.

God isn’t calling me to be a professional the second I start to step out and follow Him. He just asks that I take the first step of faith, and the next, and the next.

It’s been said before, but I can’t compare my step one to someone else’s step fifty.

It’s time to dream again and not be hindered by any baggage that isn’t from the Lord. It’s time to create for the pure joy of creating, not to be better than anyone else. It’s time to write to share my heart, and not be held back by trying to make every word perfect.

I’ve felt what I believe to be the Lord’s prompting towards putting one of my hand lettered designs on t-shirts to sell. And honestly, I’ve been a bit disobedient by not pursuing that calling for the past few months. Over the past week or so, I’ve started walking in that dream again. I’m working on starting up my Etsy shop and figuring out how to start a business from my talents. I’ve tried my best to make a conscious choice to send those thoughts of “Oh Sarah, you’re just not good enough” away and not listen to those lies anymore. Through this whole process, I’ve adopted a few new mottos for the year ahead. When I’m faced with thoughts of “I just have NO idea how I’m even going to do this,” I tell myself: “Anything I don’t know, I can learn.” For thoughts of failing I tell myself: “Success or failure, at least I have learned.”

This year I want to pursue my God-given passions with arms wide open and run towards them with absolute joy in my heart.

Trust the Lord with the tiny, fragile dreams and the big, scary ones too.

Goodbye good enough. Hello dreams.

“Go and find what it is that inspires you, go and find what it is that you love, and go do that till it hurts.” -Joanna Gaines.